Picture of Today

This isn't goodbye. You go to get back for me. I'll wait here. I'm looking forward to that day.

Holiday is over. You finally have to go back out of town to do what you have to do. Three weeks, not short but not long enough for me to see you. I'm gonna miss you more. Take care my dear sleepyhead. It's just about the time to make what we dream of come true. I'll wait here. I'm gonna hold on for us. Promise that you hold on too. (˘⌣˘)ε˘`)

A 38,5°C Post

I caught a fever. I'm sick. I hate sick. I hate to make my boyfriend worried. I'm writing this post with a thermometer under my armpit. This is it--38,5°C. I feel so sick. Gratefully, I had an idea to call my boyfriend and asked him to bring me some soup--capcay. He came, and took care of me. Didn't want to lose an opportunity, I asked him to spoon-feed me. Hehehe. Then I slept in the living room with him beside me until my mom came home. Thank you, Uda! Now, I'm going to go to the doctor. My fever doesn't get better. I need a medicine. Pray for me, okay? :-) **widyakilaz**

At least I have something to focus on...

While everyone has started their lives, I'm still here doing nothing. Not literally nothing, but people keep saying that. Yeah, I'm still jobless. Reason? Haha. Because I am not too eager to find one--again, that what people keep saying. I don't fully agree, yeah of course I am eager to find a job. Umm, I just a little bit picky about the schools. I am sure I will get a job soon.

And I am not doing nothing. At least I have something to focus on. I have much progress in running my little business. I have a settled place and a tent now so I am no longer worried about the security tax charged by some particular organizations and the weather. This stuff is in line with my resolutions, so I can't do this carelessly. I hope someday this business will grow bigger and bigger and bigger and bigger than now. Amen. **widyakilaz**

*****

Six more days, Uda will come home. I can't wait for that. I miss him so much! No one can imagine how it feels. Maybe it's just me and him (and them who walk on a long-distance relationship) who know how it feels. More than four months, what a record for me! I couldn't stand not meeting him for more than a week before. But now, I try to accept the reality that I can't meet him everyday anymore. It's hard, but I can do it, right? Maybe it's what is called sacrifice. And, how about belief? I think we can say that too. It's the belief that makes us believe that someday we can be together, however now we're far apart. And it's love that makes us strong and warm and comfortable, that makes us take care of each other's heart from being uneasy. I can't believe you're coming home, sleepyhead! :-*

You're Coming Home

Seven more days, and I can touch you. I can't wait for the day. I miss you so much. I wish I could skip tomorrow's thursday, friday, saturday, sunday, monday, tuesday, and be straight on wednesday. The day when I can touch you, hold you, hug you, kiss you, be with you. When there's no distance between us--literally. **widyakilaz**

A Story of Virgo and Libra Waving a White Flag (Again)

Virgo-Libra

Hello, blogwalkers! Hehe. I want to tell about something. This morning, I "talked" with Septi, the ex-girlfriend of my ex-boyfriend--the one I told you in the previous post several months ago, remember? Well, there was a misunderstanding between me and her for quite a long time. This made me feel uneasy, a little bit uncomfortable actually. After explaining and regaining some explanation, finally it's gone. We're cool, and I'm very happy. **widyakilaz**

2012: ME AGAINST THE WORLD

It's new year, finally. Two thousand and twelve, the number mentioned a lot years before because of the doom's day issue. Me? I don't really believe in the gossip, but I believe it as the more challenging year than before. Well, just like the other people, I just wanna be better and live a better life. I had all my resolutions done last years, and I hope my resolutions this year will be better than done.

1. Get a job. Be an inspiring teacher.
2. Expand my 'little' business. Be more serious and innovative in running it.
3. Build my insight. Backpack to another country.
4. Have a new look for my room. Design it the way I like.

Yeah! That's what has been written, but not a boundaries of getting bigger achievement. Dreams will definitely come true, only as long as we make efforts on it. For me, dreams will guide me to know what to do and how to reach it.

By the way, it's not only me who makes new year resolution. Hihihi... My MP also get me to make  a new year resolution for us. He said that in 2012, we will not have a fight. Yup! I don't want to have a fight too, my dear Sleepyhead. It's very exhausting, you know? :-)

Just to share, last week I have a quite exciting holiday. For a week, I had a Java trip to Jogjakarta, Solo, and Semarang. I visited Malioboro, Tawangmangu, and Lawang Sewu. Not only the three places actually, but it needs so much time to mention all of the places--Kraton Jogja, Prambanan, Taman KB, Mesjid Agung Jawa Tengah, and many more. For the first time, I ate rabbit sate  and tahu gimbal. It's really delicious! Srluupp...

Prambanan Temple, Central Java, Indonesia

Gerojogan Sewu Waterfall, Tawangmangu, Central Java, Indonesia

Lawang Sewu, Central Java, Indonesia

Well, to avoid you of being jealous, I think I'll end my story here. Hihihi. See you! Don't forget to have good days and a good life from now on, fellas!! Hug and kiss. **widyakilaz**

It feels like hell to not be believed...

I just don't know what else to do. All I know is that I love you. It's always you.

Gw nggak tau lagi harus cerita ke siapa. Baru kali ini gw ngerasa sedih, sampe rasanya mau mati! Ternyata rasanya nggak dipercaya sama orang yang kita sayang itu kayak gini. Sakit. Nyesek. Nggak sampe mati juga sih, astagfirullah, takut. But I'm tired of crying. I don't wanna die crying. Gw nggak mau ngapa-ngapain, gw nggak mood ngapa-ngapain. Gw cuma mau ini cepet selesai semuanya. Gw mau kayak biasa lagi. Gw mau semuanya baik-baik aja. Maafin aku ya sayang.

I'm back! :D

Whoaaa!!! Akhirnya ngeblog lagi. Hehe. Udah lama banget nggak update. Maaf ya temen2 blogger, postingan tentang backpacking ke Singapurnya belum selesai. Belum sempet bikin. Sibuk macem2.

Oh iya, innalillahiwainnailaihi raji'un, eyang gw tanggal 10 Oktober kemarin akhirnya meninggal dunia. Pas gw lagi liburan di Singapur. Kalo ditanya gw sedih atau seneng, gw pasti jawab dua2nya. Gw sedih karena nenek gw yang tinggal satu2nya udah nggak ada, tapi seneng karena akhirnya penderitaan eyang gw selama satu bulan itu berakhir. Gw nggak tega dia nahan sakit sebegitunya.

Well, setelah diwisuda, gw belum sempet ngelamar kerja. Gw sibuk bolak-balik ke rumah sakit nengok eyang. Trus, hasil USG perut gw juga udah keluar. Ternyata, gw kena maag kronis dan kristal di ginjal. Alhamdulillah maagnya udah mendingan dan sekarang lagi banyak2in minum air putih. Kata dokter, untungnya yang di ginjal gw itu masih kristal, belum jadi batu. Fiewh! Emang salah gw sih.

Gw paling males pipis.

Karena males pipis, gw jadi males minum.

Gw males minum, karena gw males pipis.

See? Emang gw suka cari penyakit!

Hmm, gw emang belum kerja. Tapi nggak bisa dibilang pengangguran juga sih. Soalnya, gw lagi jadi guru pengganti di SMAN 48 Jakarta. Kira2 dua bulanlah. Sekarang udah masuk minggu ke-4. Parah. Masa gw dikasih ngajar kelas XII IPA! Nekat amat ya ni sekolah. Biasanya anak kelas 3 kan nggak sembarangan dikasih ke orang. Wkwkwk. Tapi gw ngajarnya serius kok, nggak sembarangan... :D

Oh iya, gw sekarang udah punya sepeda gunung loh! Hohoho. Lagi keranjingan main sepeda. nih! :))

..........

Kayaknya ada yang kurang ya kalo belum cerita tentang Uda gw. Hehehe. Gw udah dua bulan nggak ketemu... I REALLY MISS HIM SO BADLY. Tapi baru bisa ketemu sekitar dua bulan lagi pas liburan semester. Huhuhu... Alhamdulillah di sana Uda udah punya temen. Dan sekarang jadi rajin banget belajar, hahaha!!! Kalo weekend gw masih suka khawatir sih, soalnya temen2 kuliahnya pada 'pulang kampung'. Hmm, so far so good. Doakan! :***

Well, udah dulu ya. Belum solat dzuhur. See you in the next post! -kilaz

Horrayyy!!! I'm gonna take my first flight! :D *norak*

Akhirnya!!! Setelah menunggu sekian lama, akhirnya besok berangkat juga! :D Norak ya gw, gara2 baru pertama kali naik pesawat sih. Pertama kali backpacking juga. Hoho. Bener2 excited, karena mulai bikin paspor, sampe mau berangkat gw nyiapin semuanya sendiri. Jadi ceritanya, besok gw sama 5 temen gw (Fela, Een, Tami, Defi, dan Tyas) bakal jalan2 ke negara tetangga, Singapura. Pas bulan Maret kemarin kita iseng beli tiket promo kesana, abis kalo ngajakin temen2 sekelas (bener2 lengkap sekelas) buat jalan2 nggak pernah jadi. Kriuk doang. Makanya kita nekat aja beli. Hahaha. Gw pake duit hasil ngajar part time gw buat segala biaya. Tapi sebenernya agak ternodai sedikit sih, karena pas kemarin gw ulang tahun, kakak gw (Mas Aji) ngasih kado amplop. Udah dituker ke SGD juga lagi. Wkwk. Kan mau nolak nggak enak. Mana Ibu juga ngasih sangu lagi. Namanya rejeki, mau diapain lagi.. :)) Oke deh, untuk lebih jelasnya, tunggu cerita gw kalo udah pulang aja ya! Nanti gw bocorin juga detail budget kesana berapa. Mungkin aja temen2 ada yang mau ngikutin jejak kita. Hehe. Murah kok! Oh iya, doain perjalanannya lancar juga ya!!! See ya fellas... :*** -kilaz