Happy New Year, Let's Have a Fresh Start

Annyeonghaseyo! It's been a while since the last time I updated this blog. Well, because we've just celebrated idul fitri, and before the smell is gone, I would like to apologize for what I've done. Let's have a fresh start just now. Starting from 0-0 again. In Islamic calendar, it's still new year, right? So, I will pretend this post as the first post this year.

Where should I start? I was about doing my translation then. But when I checked my email, it hasn't been there. So, while waiting for it, I want to share something about my life first. Shortly, in Bahasa, it's called curhat. The following story is just a little story about my life. Surely I won't be able to retell the whole because my brain is not that good in memorizing.

My "School" Life
When I wrote "school" life, it doesn't mean that I'm still in college or something. It's the school where I've been working. To be short, I'm working in one of famous Islamic elementary school (hehehe) in Cibubur, teaching 2nd graders. My students are very unique. I will tell some.

Uma is one of my students who likes to nag. What's been nagged? Yeah, her physical condition. Basically, she's okay. But she likes to say that she's sick. This happens everyday. Please note, everyday. Even one day, she called me by herself saying that she's sick. OMG--students nowadays.

Day 1
Uma: "Ms, I feel sick. I have a headache..." (touching her forehead)
Me: "Oh, what a pity. Let me walk you to the School Health Unit." (worried) 

Day 2
Uma: "Ms, I don't know, there is a problem with my hand." (holding her hand)
Me: "What happened?" (checking her hand, found nothing, realized something)
Uma: "I don't understand, it suddenly feels bad."
Me: "Okay, just sit on your chair. It will be gone soon." 

Day 3
Uma: "Ms, I am dizzy. I want to throw up."
Me: "You're gonna be okay. Don't kid too much with your friends."
Uma: "Really Ms. My head is sick."
Me: "You just had kidded to much with your friends. Believe me, you're okay."
Uma: "No Ms. I want to throw up. I want to throw up if my friends are noisy."
Me: "..." 

Day 4
Uma: "Ms, I've got a fever." (touching her forehead)
Me: "Let me see..." (touching her forehead, found she's okay)
Uma: (showing pity face)
Me: "No, you're okay." (leaving her)

Uma has two best friends. One in my class (Agita), and one in other class (Sasha). They like a third grader boy named Rafa. One day, Uma and Sasha wrote a letter to Rafa. Knowing this, Agita was really angry. She didn't except that they didn't put her name in the letter. Agita and Uma argued until they cried. And finally, Uma ripped the letter into pieces, cried and shouted: "Look! It's already ripped. Are you satisfied?! Look!" Hahahahahahaha. It looked like a scene from a drama.

There are lots of stories about my class everyday. It won't be enough to write it here. My students are way too unique. They like to fight, they never shut up, they like to nag, they like to cry, they like to share foods, they like to make me (and Ms Fiyya--my colleague) exhausted and thirsty. Well, but I love them all.

My students' parents are nice too. They are very generous, hehehe. Before Idul Fitri holiday, they share some presents, cookies, and angpao to me and Ms Fiyya. I was very happy because before I used to open my mom's presents, and now I had mine. So far, I like being here. I learn a lot.

My "Home" Life
Home doesn't mean that I already form a family. Hehe. It's about my life as a daughter of Mr Purwo and Mrs Fajar. They are glad to know that I'm working in my working place right now. They said that it's good to make me better.

As a working daughter, I feel that I'm supposed to give some of my money to my parents as a form that I want to reply what they've done. Unfortunately, I am still not able to do that. First, because my salary is much much much lower than my parents. Second, because I have been using it to pay my two-wheels-vehicle installment. Third, because...hm...I think the first reason is the main reason... :'(

My "Friendship" Life
I miss my friends so much. We seldom meet, but luckily we can keep in touch with the help of technology. However, it feels not enough because I like meeting them directly, sharing each others' updates, hehehe. Hm, I think I will see them today, or tomorrow.

My "Love" Life
Hm, what should I say. It's getting better and better. Just like the ocean, it's never dry. He's getting busy, but I can understand that he has to finish his study. I believe him, and I believe that he won't make me disappointed.

A couple days ago, I went to his house and met his parents. I was so nervous, but I think it went well. That was the first time his dad asked something directly to me. Whoaaa... I couldn't feel my stomach! >_<

"TIME FOR A FRESH START-YEAR ZERO"

Well, I want to be better and better. I will do my best to be the best for my best mans--my family, my boyfriend, my friends, my students, everyone that I love and who love me. Okay, I think this is the end of this post. I hope you don't get bored because it seems that I will be back as a blogger and update this blog as often as possible. Hehehe. Adios! *widyakilaz*

It's called "human"...

Sometimes, we keep doing something that is not allowed.

Sometimes, we keep doing something without seeing the result.

Sometimes, we keep doing something that we like.

Sometimes, we keep doing something wrong though we know that's wrong.

It has happened since our first anchestor was created.

It's only human who did that.

We're the sons of Adam.

*widyakilaz*

Tomorrow, You're Mine :*

Baru kali ini, gw bukan orang pertama yang ketemu Uda pas dia lagi pulang ke Jakarta. Biasanya gw selalu jadi orang pertama (atau paling nggak prioritas utama ketemu deh, hehehehe. Pede bener yak!) Ini dia kronologis kejadiannya:

Jumat, 3 Agustus '12 >> Dari Surabaya sampe di Jakarta malem hari, istirahat

Sabtu, 4 Agustus '12 >> Istirahat, sorenya buka bareng temen2 nongkrong di Depok, malemnya nginep di rumah Chepy

Minggu, 5 Agustus '12 >> Baru pulang siang dari rumah Chepy, lanjut istirahat di rumah

Senin, 6 Agustus '12 >> Buka puasa bareng temen2 SMAnya di Cijantung

Gw nggak mau ketemu di sela2 waktu di atas karena pasti cuma sebentar ketemunya, hehe. Besok Uda janji mau anter-jemput ke sekolah, trus (kalo jadi) nemenin nonton Batman, trus buka puasa bareng deh. Pokoknya besok Uda punya gw... :") *widyakilaz*

Pengakuan

Setelat diliat-liat, dibaca-baca, dan diamati, ternyata beberapa postingan di blog gw agak2 alay. Wkwkwk. Maklum, being twenty something is hard... (apa hubungannya-___-") *widyakilaz*

"Happy Birthday, My Prince." (July, 17th 2012)

"Happy birthday, My Prince. I will always love you, my dear Sleepyhead."

...my birthday boy...kue yang cuma bisa diliat di layar kaca, hiks...

Al Azhar: First Three Days

Last Thursday I started working in my new school. Actually, the new term is about to start on Monday (9/7) but we have to decorate all classes before it. That's why these three days--what I mean by three days are thursday, friday, and saturday--we decorated the class with many instruments, like Huruf Hijaiyah, The Angels of Allah, The Characters of Allah, Our Birthday, My Reward, My Information, Bulan Hijriyah, Bulan Masehi, Islamic Year, Name Tag (for locker), and so on. All have to be done by Monday. Luckily, I will teach the second grader (who start study on Tuesday) so I still have one more day to finish them all.

Well, I just arrived from Lubang Buaya to have Pak Udin The Tailor sew my uniforms. Today is so exhausting. I went to school to continue decorating at 8 am to 1 pm, then I went to Cibubur Junction to buy a pair of shoes and had lunch, and finally to Pak Udin's place after eating dinner at Pondok Gede with Dinta (my cousin).

Back to the three first days in school. So far I feel fine being here. Peoples here are nice (so far). What is hard is just the workload. But I'm sure that I can do it! :-) Okay, this job takes my time very much. Maybe you think that I just teach elementary school, but you have no idea how much work that you have to do. Wkwkwk. Very tired, but I love it. I love teaching. And this causes some differences in my life, one of them is that I can't spend my time being with my boyfriend. I'm sorry, my prince. *widyakilaz*

Prepare for Tomorrow: 1st Day

Today, I'm informed that I've passed the test to teach in SD Al Azhar 20 Cibubur. I am still a teacher assistant, but I think this is a good place to start my career after SMAN 48 Jakarta. Actually I have no experience in teaching elementary students, but I'll accept the challenge. I hope this is a right decision.

Before this, actually I have been accepted in SMK Bina Citra Asia--a new little school in Kramat Jati. But I think I have to make a choice. Life is always full of choice, right? And there is often something to sacrifice. *widyakilaz*

Being Unemployed, Holiday Everyday

Hey, buddies! Pasti udah kangen ya liat postingan gw. Wkwkwk. Pede parah. Siapa juga yang mau baca blog yang isinya curhatan doang. Well, gw mau curhat lagi nih. Kali ini tentang semua yang gw alamin belakangan ini.

Firstly, I wanna tell you about my career. Udah sebulan ini gw jadi pengangguran, hehehe. Tadinya gw ngajar di SMAN 48 Jakarta, sebagai invaler. Gw gantiin guru yang cuti. Dapet 5 bulan di sana. Gw ngerasa enjoy ngajar di sana karena murid-muridnya, baik kelas XII maupun XI. Tadinya sih mau lanjut karena ada guru yang mau pensiun. Tapi apa daya, ada guru PNS dari sekolah lain yang pindah ke situ. Jadilah gw kegusur. Tapi di sana nggak sia-sia juga kok, karena gw jadi belajar kalo ternyata dunia kerja itu kejam, nggak semua rekan kerja itu baik. Pelajaran yang berharga. And here I am, a happy unemployed person. Tapi gw bersyukur. Selama jadi pengangguran, gw selalu dapet job translet. Jadi gw nggak bokek-bokek banget. Buat jajan dan jalan-jalan sih masih bisalah.

Me and XI IPA 2, SMAN 48 Jakarta

Dua minggu yang lalu, gw sama GM dan Chae, sahabat gw sejak SMA, jalan-jalan ke Lampung. Kita pergi ke Pulau Sebesi, Pulau Sebuku Kecil, Pulau Umang-Umang, Lagoon Cabe, dan Gunung Anak Krakatau sama rombongan Learn Indonesia, orang-orang yang sama sekali belum gw kenal. . Seruuuu....banget. This is my first experience of snorkeling. Norak ya. Hehe. Seneng, soalnya gw ketemu orang-orang baru dalam hidup gw. I like having some friends that my other friends do not know. It's like being outside the zone.

Kiri-Kanan: Gw, Mba Rany, Mba Lina, Chae, GM @ Anak Gunung Krakatau

***

Dan akhirnya, udaku pulang. Akhirnya, setelah hampir 6 bulan, setelah halangan2 yang terjadi belakangan ini, Udaku pulang juga. Kangeeennn.....banget. Kemaren langsung gw peluk, peluk, masih peluk, peluk lagi, peluk terus, peluk, dan peluk. Hehehe. Pokoknya nggak mau ngelepasin deh. I really miss him so much. Udaku cuma pulang sebentar, hari selasa udah balik lagi ke Surabaya. Mudah2an semua urusan dia di sana lancar. Semoga cepet lulus, cepet kerja, cepet bisa mewujudkan cita2 kita. Amin.

Happy 19th-month anniversary, my prince. I hope you're the one and I'm the one. (30-06-12)

Cinta-cintaan lagi lagi dan lagi... (-__-")

Udah lama nggak ngeblog nih kayaknya. Gw lagi males banget ngurusin blog, hehe. Maaf ya, Pink (tiba2 aja pengen ngasin nama si blog, hahaha). Sebenernya pengen banget nerusin postingan2 yang belum selesai. Yang masih bagian 1. Tapi kayaknya gw pengen curhat masalah percintaan gw (lagi) deh. Dan karena gw lagi bete dan muak sama bahasa Inggris (just to say, I think I'm a victim of translation), gw mau pake bahasa Ibu gw aja, bahasa Indonesia, hehehe.

Sebenernya, gw nggak ada masalah apa2 sama cowo gw. Rasa sayang gw setiap hari tumbuh dan terus tumbuh. Tapi gw lagi geregetan banget sama satu cewek ini, sebut aja namanya Bubu (karena gw nggak suka banget ngeliat Bubunya Syahrini, jadi mari kita kasih nama yang sama sama cewe ini).

Gw mau ceritain sejarah si Bubu sama cowo gw dulu deh. Jadi, si Bubu ini adalah temen lamanya cowo gw. Mereka udah lama banget bertemen, malah bisa dibilang bertemen deket. Tapi, masih duluan gw sih yang kenal, soalnya kita satu SMP (*nggak mau kalah, hahaha). Intinya, mereka deket. Sampe sebelum gw jadianpun, mereka masih deket. Dan, yah, harus diakui kalo dia salah satu alasan kenapa waktu itu kita nggak bisa langsung jadian dan sempet bilang: "Gw nyaman kayak gini. Kita gini aja dulu ya. Masih ada urusan yang belum selesai."

Gw pikir, teror si Bubu berakhir sampe saat gw jadian. Ternyata gw salah. Pada awal gw jadian, si Bubu masih suka chattingan sama cowo gw. Dan itu gw baru tau beberapa bulan yang lalu. Kesel dan sakit ngeliat chattingan mereka. Si Bubu masih bilang2 sayang, walaupun cowo gw blg dy juga sayang walaupun sebagai temen.

Si Bubu ini selalu terlihat lemat dan kesepian, makanya mungkin terlalu berlebihan dan jahat kalo gw sampe ngelarang2 dy untuk nggak suka curhat ke cowo gw, yah, walaupun dengan begitu gw jadi ngejahatin hati gw sih. Sebenernya, nggak masalah ada siapapun, cewe atau cowo, curhat ke cowo gw, selama nggak aneh-aneh. Tapi geregetan banget banget banget, karena si Bubu masih suka manggil Momonku, terutama kalo dy nambahin kata2 sayang di belakangnya, dan masih menyinggung masalah kalo dulu dy sayang sama cowo gw.

Dan gw juga jadi kesel kalo dy masih suka bilang kalo harusnya dy yang jadian sama cowo gw kalo aja nggak jadian sama gw. Dan yang ngeselin lagi, kalo dy udah nyinggung masalah yang mendasar banget, masalah yang dy pikir ngebuat dy nggak bisa jadian sama cowo gw, karena kalo aja nggak ada masalah itu, pasti cowo gw bakal ngejadiin dy.

Gw sebenernya ngerti kalo sampe sekarang dy masih suka mau ngajakin cowo gw ngobrol, tapi gw nggak habis pikir kenapa dy yang terlalu baik dan lemah itu bisa bilang "sayang", "kangen", dan "tenang aja, gw nggak akan ganggu hubungan kalian kok, gw juga perempuan" pada saat yang sama. Itu sama aja mengganggu, secara halus. Dan walaupun gw tau, cewe suka bilang "jangan ada yang berubah ya" buat cinta yang nggak kesampean (yang nyatanya dulu juga pernah gw pake), gw ngerasa kalo emang harus ada yang berubah karena masing-masing udah punya pasangan, dan kalo emang nggak mau nyakitin pasangan masing-masing dan pasangan orang jangan sampe deh masih sama aja pas kayak belum jadian.

Gw nggak pernah manggil mantan orang yang gw suka dengan sebutan sayang, dan bahkan yang emang temenpun, gw nggak pernah nyebut sayang, karena gw menghormati pasangan gw, dan pasangan temen gw itu. Jadi, tolong dong, Bubu, dengan segala hormat jangan ngelakuin itu lagi, karena mata gw sakit ngeliatnya, dan gw yakin sesantai dan sepercaya apapun cowo lo sama lo, dy pasti juga nggak suka, kecuali kalo dy emang nggak sayang atau emang nggak peduli sama lo. Dan gw sayang dan peduli sama cowo gw, jadi gw nggak suka kalo ada yang manggil dy dengan sebutan yang lo berikan ke dy. Plis, katanya lo juga perempuan kan?

Sebenernya, awalnya gw nggak sebel sama si Bubu ini. Gw mau bertemen sama dy, gw mau kenal dy. Tapi kok rasanya semakin berat ngelakuinnya, terutama kalo dy masih kayak gitu.

Gw nulis ini, dengan resiko mungkin cowo gw akan sedikit ngambek karena mungkin gw terlalu kasar. Tapi gw juga manusia, gw punya perasaan, dan gw cewe. Semua orang tau cewe bisa jadi sangat mengerikan saat dy ngerasa disakitin. Dan mungkin gw lagi jadi seperti itu, dengan cara gw sendiri. Dan gw masih sangat baik karena gw nggak nulis siapa nama asli si Bubu, dan ngelampirin attachment di sini.

"A girl can be a monster once she's hurt."

Gw cuma berharap, hubungan gw sama cowo gw yang baik2 aja nggak akan terganggu karena masalah ini. I'm sorry for acting like this, but I can't keep this feeling inside me forever. I feel more relieved once I told someone or something about it. **widyakilaz**

Postingan Galau: Nggak Penting

Nggak tau mau nulis apa. Kalo diibaratkan dengan kata-kata, gw sekarang lagi berada di bagian terendah hidup gw. Fisik, mental, sakit semua. -widyakilaz-