Being Unemployed, Holiday Everyday

Hey, buddies! Pasti udah kangen ya liat postingan gw. Wkwkwk. Pede parah. Siapa juga yang mau baca blog yang isinya curhatan doang. Well, gw mau curhat lagi nih. Kali ini tentang semua yang gw alamin belakangan ini.

Firstly, I wanna tell you about my career. Udah sebulan ini gw jadi pengangguran, hehehe. Tadinya gw ngajar di SMAN 48 Jakarta, sebagai invaler. Gw gantiin guru yang cuti. Dapet 5 bulan di sana. Gw ngerasa enjoy ngajar di sana karena murid-muridnya, baik kelas XII maupun XI. Tadinya sih mau lanjut karena ada guru yang mau pensiun. Tapi apa daya, ada guru PNS dari sekolah lain yang pindah ke situ. Jadilah gw kegusur. Tapi di sana nggak sia-sia juga kok, karena gw jadi belajar kalo ternyata dunia kerja itu kejam, nggak semua rekan kerja itu baik. Pelajaran yang berharga. And here I am, a happy unemployed person. Tapi gw bersyukur. Selama jadi pengangguran, gw selalu dapet job translet. Jadi gw nggak bokek-bokek banget. Buat jajan dan jalan-jalan sih masih bisalah.

Me and XI IPA 2, SMAN 48 Jakarta

Dua minggu yang lalu, gw sama GM dan Chae, sahabat gw sejak SMA, jalan-jalan ke Lampung. Kita pergi ke Pulau Sebesi, Pulau Sebuku Kecil, Pulau Umang-Umang, Lagoon Cabe, dan Gunung Anak Krakatau sama rombongan Learn Indonesia, orang-orang yang sama sekali belum gw kenal. . Seruuuu....banget. This is my first experience of snorkeling. Norak ya. Hehe. Seneng, soalnya gw ketemu orang-orang baru dalam hidup gw. I like having some friends that my other friends do not know. It's like being outside the zone.

Kiri-Kanan: Gw, Mba Rany, Mba Lina, Chae, GM @ Anak Gunung Krakatau

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Dan akhirnya, udaku pulang. Akhirnya, setelah hampir 6 bulan, setelah halangan2 yang terjadi belakangan ini, Udaku pulang juga. Kangeeennn.....banget. Kemaren langsung gw peluk, peluk, masih peluk, peluk lagi, peluk terus, peluk, dan peluk. Hehehe. Pokoknya nggak mau ngelepasin deh. I really miss him so much. Udaku cuma pulang sebentar, hari selasa udah balik lagi ke Surabaya. Mudah2an semua urusan dia di sana lancar. Semoga cepet lulus, cepet kerja, cepet bisa mewujudkan cita2 kita. Amin.

Happy 19th-month anniversary, my prince. I hope you're the one and I'm the one. (30-06-12)

What the hell, I am being super sensitive again!

Am I too much if...

...I want to know every single things about you?
...I want to know about what's bothering you?
...I want to be your shoulder to cry on?
...I am jealous when you offer to pick up another girl so easily?
...I don't want you to be with me only when you're happy?
...I want to be the first person who knows everything about you?
...I want you to tell me your things, good or bad?

Damn. I am being super sensitive again, almost because of the same topic. I hate to feel this actually. But I can't help myself out. Do you know? I...sometimes cannot feel your love--when this feeling comes up. I feel being ignored. I feel that you don't need me like I need you. Sometimes I feel that you don't have time for me. But for your friends, you always do. Well, I know that I am not as precious as your friends who have known you for years. I'm new in your life. Should I ask you to choose: me or your friends?? This is too much. If I am asked the same questions, maybe I prefer to die. Arrghh...  I think I am just being silly. I still love you. Not even reduced. -kilaz

I'm sorry for being not okay...

I just cant tell anybody how I feel... I dont trust anyone right now. I dont know why, but anytime I notice such situations, it burns. And I just can say nothing, except my heart, because it cries. So, sorry for being not okay. And I'm really not okay, at least until this time I write this post. -kilaz-

RT @ihatequotes I'd rather have 1 Best Friend than have 100 fake friends. #DamnItsTrue